1 post from November 2009

And the mod elections are being held up i'd figure i'd give my $.02

Some of you know twop, but do some of you know about twop sucks (now bitter but brilliant)? I was a huge jacob supporter and would kiss his butt all up and down the twop boards. One day a friend sent me a link to twop sucks and i saw people saying the most hateful and hurtful things about yours truly.

It was bad (real bad michael jackson) and then i got mad (real mad joe jackson) and then? I realized they had no idea who i was! Their opinion of me was based on a few statements made on a site that i basically lived at, but it was completely one dimensional. So i joined, answered some questions from the haters, and made some really cool friends that i still talk to this day.

During my time there we began to question the regime. The very things we were hating on twoppers for (oh yeah, i joined in after a while, shut up, i was young! Besides, it was mostly to hate on jacob haters, heh) we were doing ourselves. So i got an invite to twop sucks suck aka lyle lovett's needs (inorite). There, the *mod* lovers hated on the *mod* haters that hated on the *mod* lovers (don't think it can't get more meta people, cause it got even more meta but that comes later) and we talked about gasbag members who we didn't like.

Later in i'd created a *mod* fan forum (did i mention i was crazy for a while? And young? And may have been well into my 20's when this happened?) And a few splinter members from tss/lln were members. We had a hidden forum where we just talked trash about the entire situation. It's actually kind of funny how simlar all of this is, there was a southern sassy bell, a gay guy, a mommy blogger, a resplendent foreigner, and a disgruntled housewife!

We mostly just ran around being jerks in the privacy of our own forum when someone in the group happened upon some cached pages from the mod comm of twopsucks. They exposed the members as having ghostnics and sockpuppets on their own boards! They would post as their sock agreering with someone and then come in as a mod banishing everyone. Insanity, right?

I didn't think it was fair to have this info and not give it to the board and one other girl agreed with me. We wanted to release it. The rest of the group (about 5 others) didn't want to and they were vocal but not really beyond "you guys we shouldn't do this, this is bad!" what transpired next is what i see happening here and basically rattled my world.

Instead of continuing to talk about it, the splinter group decided to start a gmail thread (told you, more meta!) Where they called me everything but a child of god. During this time i had a lot of projects in the mix and they analyzed every action i took as something to out them and derail them and sell their secrets to the KGB or whatever. One of them emailed me the thread (and then later one of them accused me of hacking into their email account to get it) and when confronted only one girl decided to take the heat of my wrath (y'all, it was on my birthday y'all!). She asked me to explain my actions and i did to the very detail and she believed me. She admitted she got caught up in the crazy and i forgave her and we're still e-cool to this day. Some of them apologized and we're gravy, and some i haven't talked to since.

don't think all of that has nothing to do with this. Honestly, i get what it's like to have people talking about you, but you have got to get a thicker skin on the webs. Who cares? They don't know you and 9 times out of 10 the things they say have nothin to do with you! I had a girl say i caused her to get a reprimand at work because she was taking too much time wading through my bs! Umm... Introspection much?

Fly above the hate! Strut! Some awesome lyric from a kris song! Friday i'll be over you!

But we need to hunker down as a comm and decide what we want to be and how to get there. And we can't do that if we can't go through a single night of petty drama. Breath before taking action. Learn to look at an entire situation and not just the part that effects you. Learn how to put your personal feelings and friendships aside for the greater good when necessary. Learn how to be hated, how to lose friendships, how to make tough decisions and how to stick by them.

I love this comm too much to see it burn down. I've seen that before and it's nuts, but it is preventable. Let's prevent it.

I love you guys. Now I’m going to shower!